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the camera gave me the psychological
permission slip to do that right so if I
was doing that same thing ranting and
raving to myself without somebody
filming me then there'd be no difference
between me and the crazy man right um so
it's always been about finding ways to
legitimize these meanderings and diving
into free association which is what
these riffs are in my videos it's it's
it's it's stream of Consciousness in a
very real sense um I try to put myself
in an altered State before I do it um
and you talk about flow you know whether
you're you know a freestyle rapper in
flow or a jazz musician or an elite
athlete flow is characterized by getting
outside yourself and by outside yourself
I mean beyond the monkey mind beyond the
inner chatter beyond the inner critic
and the questioning mind this excessive
rumination in self-consciousness that
keeps you deliberating whether you
should ever get out and do something you
know just overthinking and too much
scenario planning too much neocortical
Hardware as Jamie wheel calls it culd
disax and error messages running on
repeat in your brain and holding you
back I mean we've all suffered from
anxiety and self-consciousness and even
depression all stem from excessive
rumination but when you finally catch
that wave and you're the surfer there's
no time to think anymore you just start
being the doer and the Seer merge the
other thing that happens when you're in
flow is your sense of time disappears so
there's selflessness there's
timelessness there's a sense of
effortlessness right and flow and
there's a sense of information richness
the kind of associations you're able to
make right creativity is just connecting
things increases and for somebody like
me whose disposition is timid and who
would clearly identify uh in my my
childhood as somebody who was really
self-conscious like just thinks too much
right um sometimes in a way that was not
uh useful to me socially and or
creatively I was a stiff I was uptight I
was the guy who never danced at parties
right so everybody's having a ecstatic
moment of no mind on the dance floor and
I'm just thinking I'm going to do that
look silly worried about what other
people think and so on and so forth and
you know sometimes it takes finding the
right tool or instrument or medium that
you fall in love with so much that is
stronger than your self-consciousness
and your resistance so that you can
finally break through